Well...it would solve my problems, but it's also very risky...
Ah, decisions, decisions.

I don't think I could take another night of not sleeping because of the worry like tonight...The worry and desperation are worse than anything I could find...And it's not like I have any feelings against this or anything, but I just don't want to jump in blindly and stupidly into something like this.

Alright, alright, just a few days more.
This weekend. If things crash again this weekend...I'm pretty sure I'll do it. It's not like...well, it'll be difficult, but I think I already know just how bad this is. Hmm, decisions...

Well, let's not worry anymore until I see and understand clearly how bad things are. If they're not as bad as I think they are, if there is a posibility of getting better by this weekend, I'm staying put.

But if things crash, I'll have to act. The time for damage control will be then.
Until then, I will try to get some sleep, try to eat something...But I just can't eat or sleep when I'm like this. And it's breaking me, and I will most definitely NOT stand for that.
I'll try to control the damage by this weekend, yes...